Here I am once again. It is about 3:40 at night. Well I should say early morning now haha. Well anyway you now know quite a bit for just the start of my blogs but now here I am writing more. Soon at about 6:45 pm on this very Thursday I will be getting my very first piercing done. Actually I will be getting two done as a matter of fact. I will be getting my tongue done, and my right eyebrow done. Pretty sick don't you think so cause I would say so myself haha. You may think I am doing it because everyone else is or even my own friends are doing it. The truth is really I just wanted it for myself. True that my friends have piercings, and I did ask them about it because I wanted information on what it's like but it's not like it's a secret cult so many people have done it for centuries, and I wanted to know the experience. I'm actually quite excited to get them. I feel like it will bring my inner self out. It's a way of expressing yourself, and as do Tattoo's as well which I also want to get. I got some great ideas for those actually.
What I really want to know is why my own father is so afraid of me getting these? All he says is that people will never hire me because of my image, and other people will just judge me for it. It's like all he cares is about what other people think of me. Why should he care about other people. I'm his flesh, and blood. I came from him. If I had my own son or daughter I would defend them even if it's my own family insulting them. I've always felt like he never really appreciated me in some ways. I feel like he wanted me to be a different person like he wanted me to be exactly like him. I'm sure you have all felt the same way about your own parents as well. Not all parents are perfect but when you are a child you do learn from their mistakes, and you take what you learn from them, and involve it to something much greater. If my son wants Piercings, and Tattoos go for it. I will be there with him or her when they get their first one.
I want to love my child so much. I want them to be able to talk to me, and at least say some great things about me. I want them to be able to rely on me, and be able to actually speak to me if they are lonely, sad, depressed or anything really. I want them to have a life, and have strong emotions like me so that they are free , and know that they always have me by their side. I want to be the best father in the world. I want them to be able to hear it from their own mouths when they say it. I will even shed a tear hopefully if I feel it but I know deep down I will be crying with joy. I just hope that they have a wonderful mother who loves me for who I am as well, and the children. It's so weird that i'm thinking about this so far ahead when I haven't even made love to a woman or even had a girlfriend of that matter, and i'm only 20 years old to top it off. I just want my family I guess. I just want to start it. Maybe the party man is gonna end soon. Who knows really life is a mystery.
Finally I feel like maybe I going somewhere with stuff. I feel like I can take on the world. Once this is done tomorrow I will feel like a new person. They say that Piercings can open you up to a whole new world of things deep inside. Same with Tattoos. What I want for a Tattoo right now is a Slayer Tattoo on my upper back. It's right awesome if you saw the design of it. I want also a DragonBall Z Tattoo. I was thinking of either the Z logo on my right shoulder or Super Saiyan 3 Goku on my shoulder. I think I might go with SSJ3 Goku it seemed so much cooler. That's just my inner nerd calling out to me. God I love being a nerd lol. Anyway as I will continue it's hard to say where all things are going. I know that at the end of the summer I will be in Fredricton with Tammy who you all have heard so much about. It's gonna be awesome being roommates with her. She always brightens my day. I think finally some things will be answered though about my Dad. I just hope they all go well but I can't expect much until it actually happens. I'm praying though but until then I bid you a fair well, and goodnight to all :)
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